Posts by disillusioned 2

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Influence of Death in the Mind

by ivanatahan in

most meetings and congregations stress the idea that jehovah's witnesses will live forever on a paradise earth.

most jws are always "comforting" others about how death is only temporary.

then you get those jws who are scared of death.

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I am not afraid of being dead because I won't be aware that I am dead, but I am more afraid of how I will die and whether it will be quick or prolonged. There is a very small part of me that hopes death won't be the end and that there is something more. I secretly have hoped that we do go to heaven and I can say to all the jws, you were wrong! Lol

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HOW MANY WOULD LEAVE?

by disillusioned 2 in

jw
friends

there are a lot of people on this site and others who even though they don't believe anymore still fill the seats at the meetings.. i was just wondering, if they all decided to leave at the same time, how many do you think would leave?

would the numbers drop dramatically?

i would love to see that..

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I only joined this site a month ago and JWSurvey not long before that. I have been out for years even before we had the internet in our house. Even though I was out it took me a long time to get up the nerve to check out apostate sites, I was terrified my husband would find out I was on them. I thought that everyone who did not believe anymore would have just stopped going. I was amazed when I found out that there were many who still went (including elders) and that some still even went on the ministry and gave talks. I never ever thought that this could happen, and it has given me hope that someone I personally know could also be doing this, and that I could get a call from an old friend or family who has started to wake up.

I can understand why so many do this because of family and friends and the fear of losing them. This question was asked because I have been wondering a lot just how many of you there are, but I guess that would be impossible to answer.

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HOW MANY WOULD LEAVE?

by disillusioned 2 in

jw
friends

there are a lot of people on this site and others who even though they don't believe anymore still fill the seats at the meetings.. i was just wondering, if they all decided to leave at the same time, how many do you think would leave?

would the numbers drop dramatically?

i would love to see that..

disillusioned 2

There are a lot of people on this site and others who even though they don't believe anymore still fill the seats at the meetings.

I was just wondering, if they all decided to leave at the same time, how many do you think would leave? Would the numbers drop dramatically? I would love to see that.

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Living without the hope of paradise

by purrpurr in

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friends

i have major health issues myself and as i deprogram myself further i'm getting so sick of other jw's telling me that i'll be cured in the paradise, new system is just around the corner etc etc.

of course i have to nod and look enthusiastic in return but inside i'm screaming with frustration!

i have accepted that unless medical science makes major breakthroughs that i will be like this until i die.

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I'm also screaming inside!

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Now Even JW Men Are Going To Die At The Big A

by OneFingerSalute in

so this weekend there was a part about not following jesus at a distance.

the speaker made a big point of stating that any baptized jw male who was not either appointed ms/elder, or at the very least "reaching out" actively, was in fact following jesus at a distance.

he said that the only way to live through the big a was to follow jesus closely.

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Guess my husband's days are numbered then!

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Series

by Berengaria in

don't post much lately, but wondering what folks are watching.

i'm enjoying the heck out of "penny dreadful", "outlander", and "grace and frankie".

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Did love Breaking Bad, Walking Dead, Hannibal, Better Call Saul, Mad Men, hated the ending! Game of Thrones, Nashville, Grey's Anatomy, Bones, Dexter, Castle, Extant, Fortitude, Ascension, The Knick, Ray Donovan

Now watching Wayward Pines, (once in you can't get out), Hannibal, Game of Thrones, George Gently, Madam Secretary, The Syndicate, Forever,

I watch a lot of tv lol

I need escapism

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I'll be a Witness when I retire.

by adjusted knowledge in

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friends

i was around age 5 when my father allowed an elder and his wife into our home for a bible study.

my father never got baptized and left the religion completely when i was 12. he would tell the family that when he retires he would return to the religion.

he never went into absolutely why he left, but i think it has to do with the fact he reported an elder's daughter making out with a "worldly" guy, and it was my father that got lambasted.

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My dad invited the witnesses into our house, my mum would never have. My dad got baptised as a witness in 1958 when I was 4, my mum wasn't interested. My dad very quickly stopped going (don't really know why). They carried on calling on my mum, persuaded her to have a study and they studied with her for 10 years, at the same time they (the witnesses) got my mum to get other witnesses to have studies with my sister and I. Bombardment! My sister and I were many times over the 10 years made to go to the meetings on our own, we were taken to assemblies by the people who were studying with us and taken on the ministry, no sign of my mum or dad!

By the time my mum got the courage to tell her family (that I think was holding her back) I was 14 and well indoctrinated myself by then. We all went to meetings etc and my dad happily stayed at home watching tv.

He went back a few times but always stopped very quickly. I never even asked him why until years later when I myself was having doubts. He said there was a lot he didn't agree with. I asked him what attracted him in the first place, he said he wanted to see his mum again (he was 14 when she died) and now I guess I never will. I thought that was so sad. My mum and dad are both 85 now, my dad is waiting to die and my mum is still waiting for the new system!

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The JOYS of being an EX-JW

by nicolaou in

add to the list and let's see the weekend out on a positive note!

1. sunday mornings.

alarm not set, cuddles with the mrs, tunes in the bedroom, coffee, bacon, another lazy coffee in the garden .

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Raising a glass to say cheers to someone. I recently did this when at a funeral with my relatives. I still felt awkward though as my jw sister was there!

Skirts; I don't think I've worn one since I stopped going to meetings.

No more teatowells on head lol.

Never having to stand holding magazines by a literature cart, looking embarrassed.

Wishing happy Xmas back to someone instead of mumbling thanks.

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The JOYS of being an EX-JW

by nicolaou in

add to the list and let's see the weekend out on a positive note!

1. sunday mornings.

alarm not set, cuddles with the mrs, tunes in the bedroom, coffee, bacon, another lazy coffee in the garden .

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Not having to sit through boring assemblies

Not having to do talks

Having house to myself when husband at meetings and assemblies

Celebrating xmas and birthdays (though secretly) with my children

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Apost8News: "Return to Jehovah" Official Literature Release Video - 2015 Convention Lowlight

by cappytan in

again, thanks to wifibandit and pixel for their work behind the scenes.. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pwzviu3jfko.

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Great; look forward to having that brochure lying around the house by my husband for me to see, like by reading that I will suddenly forget all the reasons I left!

My husband was inactive until last year, it took two visits from an elder to get him back to meetings.